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The Wild Ride

I have compared grief to a roller coaster. I have been on the ride today. I have felt happy and horrible so close together it is frightening. I was watching a TV show I really enjoy (Monk) and during the show I was as happy as I am nowadays. On each commercial I felt so depressed. It's very weird.

My therapist is having surgery next week, and I am anxious about not going for two weeks. I feel as though so many people don't want to hear what I am thinking about. They can't take it because it is so raw. B surely can't. Friends change the subject. I am upset and I don't know what to do.

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dabroots
Aug. 6th, 2004 10:14 pm (UTC)
I am dropping by here and offering you a friendly greeting. That's the best I can offer.
lonestarslp
Aug. 6th, 2004 10:21 pm (UTC)
Thank you. I
appreciate it when people can read or listen and accept what I am saying or writing.
scienceguru
Aug. 7th, 2004 12:02 am (UTC)
*hugs*

lonestarslp
Aug. 7th, 2004 07:39 am (UTC)
Thanks!
gurdonark
Aug. 7th, 2004 03:23 am (UTC)
Have you joined a support group for grieving parents? It strikes me that this might be one idea for an outlet.
daisydumont
Aug. 7th, 2004 06:19 am (UTC)
i second that. talking to people who understand your grief because they've gone through it or are going through it might be so helpful. it works that way with other kinds of pain, i know.
lonestarslp
Aug. 7th, 2004 07:38 am (UTC)
I have considered it but had not felt ready in the past. Maybe now is the time to start something.
doomflower
Aug. 7th, 2004 04:21 am (UTC)
What might help is using this journal as an outlet. If there's things you don't want anyone but yourself to ever see, lock the entry as 'Private', and just type your heart out.

If you'd rather not type, it might also help to write out your raw thoughts in longhand, in a notebook.
lonestarslp
Aug. 7th, 2004 07:37 am (UTC)
Actually, I have made private entries before. Thanks for reminding me about that.
celtling
Aug. 8th, 2004 05:41 am (UTC)
We aren't therapists, but we do read what you write and if you need to feel like someone's listening, just add a note at the bottom that you would appreciate comments, even if they're just to send hugs. We'd like to help! *HUGS*

Celt
mizdandylynn
Aug. 12th, 2004 04:25 am (UTC)
In addition to the grief group... you could create a filter.. or another lj just for those posts. I would read them. You could vent to me all you wanted. *hugs*
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