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Broken and Mended Hearts

Last night, I went to a celebration of Congenital Heart Disease Awareness Day. It was at a museum in Dallas, and a little chaotic since kids were involved. These parents were so happy to see their kids running around, since most of them were born with heart defects. The surgeons that treated them were there also; they seemed to be very decent people.

I presented the first two books of the 1,200 dollars worth we are donating to the library at Children's hospital in W's memory. Each book has a lovely plate in it saying "In Loving Memory of" with W's name and years of life. I thought it would be no big deal, so I was surprised at how I broke down crying. My sister in law came with me, thank goodness, so I had someone to cry on. It was a lovely party with a dinner, silent auction, cookie decorating and face painting for the kids. I hope they raised a lot of money. I won a huge teddy bear at the silent auction.

I read about an study that claims grief can literally break your heart by causing problems similar to a heart attack. I just hope we make through the next few weeks.

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theodicy
Feb. 12th, 2005 10:05 pm (UTC)
Lean on each other, talk, write. Keep the lines open. I think the grief combined with isolation would have killed me. I was able to scream at God, holler with my friends, curse the darkness, talk to my brother, try to cross the gap between the dead and the living. The line is longer and thinner now, after three years. But, as Emily Dickinson once said, "a hair never dissolves."

Family and friends started a foundation in G's name, and that helped a lot, too. We know where the money goes, and G's widow volunteers. I wish I were nearer.

I try with what money I have to do things that G would have done. I feel obligated to continue his work.

I am with you in spirit.
lonestarslp
Feb. 13th, 2005 03:57 am (UTC)
Thanks--I know you know what it feels like. I am not sure what W would have wanted, but I just do what helps us feel better.
theodicy
Feb. 14th, 2005 04:20 am (UTC)
Surely he would want that! :)
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lonestarslp
Feb. 13th, 2005 03:58 am (UTC)
Sending you a hug back from my new huge teddy bear.
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