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Cryin' like a Baby

Everytime I go to a church service in our chapel, I end up crying. Something just seems to reach through the protective covering I have over my vulnerable area. It is cleansing, in a way. I think I need to do it every once in a while or I become hard and bitter.

I had a wonderful lunch with an angel on Earth--the nurse who is working so hard to help the local school district get trained. I hope we spend more time together. She and I discussed several great ideas for Will's Drills. I had had a rough day yesterday, so this was very soothing.

Visited W's grave again today. It has now been 9 months since he died. I think that is why I have been so weepy. 9 months is a gestation period, and I have given birth to a grief that will always be a part of me.

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daisydumont
Mar. 10th, 2005 02:13 am (UTC)
i can imagine that the 9-month mark would be psychologically very significant, and yes, i'm sure that grief would always be there.

it's good that you had lunch with an angel today.
bkwrrm_tx
Mar. 10th, 2005 03:41 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry... I wish I had the words, but I don't.
theodicy
Mar. 10th, 2005 07:06 am (UTC)
It fades a tiny bit - slowly, slowly. But there will always be some righteous anger that a life was cut so short.

Sigh.

You are making a REAL difference. Yes. Amen.
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