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I made it through the day pretty well. A big thanks to all my LJ friends who remembered the day with me!

I went up to his room and put together a set of T-shirts that would make a nice quilt. B and I went to the grave together, where we noticed someone had left a rock on the headstone and a Mountain Dew bottle. (Mountain Dew was his favorite drink). I thought that was pretty cool, and I set the bottle into the flowers so that no one would throw it away.

I saw two ambulances that looked exactly like the one I followed to the hospital.

I re-read cards people had sent us.

I am very glad I did not go into work, so that I could feel however I wanted to feel without worrying about what someone else saw.

So a year has gone by, and he is still gone.

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theodicy
Jun. 9th, 2005 06:19 am (UTC)
Yes, he is gone, and it will never be all right. But it will get incrementally more bearable, sloooooowly.

With you.
niyabinghi
Jun. 9th, 2005 12:27 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you got to take off work for the anniversary.
While I haven't commented often on your entries dealing with your loss, I admire your writing about all the various stages and feelings you've gone through.
ecotopian
Jun. 9th, 2005 12:27 pm (UTC)
What's great is that other people are remembering too. You've gone a year, it's been a hard one but you made it. If you made it one, you can make it another.
mizdandylynn
Jun. 9th, 2005 12:59 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry... I didn't know the exact date. *hugs* I can't express myself clearly enough.. but know I am thinking of you and sending you love.
three_chis
Jun. 9th, 2005 10:53 pm (UTC)
I am glad you made it through yesterday! I thought of you often! And prayed for you on the days leading up to the day and the day itself too. I have lived through the day my dad died (12/24) for 3 years now so I know how hard it can be. I find it's such a relief when it's finally come and gone. I hope Arnold was very sweet to you and helped you through it!
a1an
Jun. 10th, 2005 04:19 am (UTC)
i cant say anything that wont seem a cliche: just say that i hope i am among your lj friends, and i do pray for you and yours
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