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Will's Room

So much going on this week that I haven't had time to write about it.

I spent a lot of time going through Will's room with the help of my sister-in-law. Some of the things I found included: a hand-written letter from our youth minister, a notebook full of journal entries for a speech class, a spiral notebook with notes telling what happened in each class(I made him because he was pretending he never got back any papers), poems I had never seen before, and a thank you card that he never gave to a friend.

I was pretty good at separating the things to keep from the things to give away or toss. I could not bring myself to throw away his stuffed animals or the clothes he was wearing the day he died. There was some crying involved, and a lot of thinking about him. Sadness about there not being a Will's room any more.

It does look much better now. And I know my living son deserves the best room we can give him. It is still sad.

In 15 minutes it will be the day he would have turned 18. We will go see the altar flowers and I will help with the blood pressure screening. Then Monday will come, as if he never existed. Sometimes I want to grab all of the people who were at the hospital that day and ask "Do you remember? He was alive and then he was dead." I don't want anyone to forget it.

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theodicy
Sep. 25th, 2005 05:06 am (UTC)
Then Monday will come, as if he never existed. Sometimes I want to grab all of the people who were at the hospital that day and ask "Do you remember? He was alive and then he was dead." I don't want anyone to forget it.

Yes. Yes. I tell people about my brother frequently, so that the number of people who know of him will grow wider and wider. It is small comfort but some.
gurdonark
Sep. 25th, 2005 09:02 am (UTC)
There is no danger of him being forgotten Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday or for decades to come. I'll never forget him, and I think about him often.

tx_cronopio
Sep. 25th, 2005 01:04 pm (UTC)
My thoughts are with you this weekend. xox pat
mizdandylynn
Sep. 25th, 2005 02:07 pm (UTC)
It will never be as if he never existed... his brother, his dad, his family will remember him for a long time. Those things... his things.. that were around him was not the whole total of him. Maybe you think I am weird.. but I think there will be an essence of him there for a long time to come... not a ghost.. but a sense of spirit. There will be things you do a bit differently because he caused you to do them differently in the first place.

I know he would not have wanted you to spend your life mourning his life... a great thing.. a treasure...

My heart is with you.
a1an
Sep. 25th, 2005 04:46 pm (UTC)
My thoughts are with you.
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