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A new year

It's been over a year since I posted in LJ. I have a permanent account, so I think my journal  was just waiting for me to come out of the weirdness I've been in for a long time. Or maybe my posting is the weirdness and then I will go back to being as I was---unable to express my feelings in written form. Frozen at the point at which my thoughts are at the door of my internal home because it is cold and scary outside.

My little boy is 17 today.  His big brother did not live past the age of 16, but he would be 21 if he were alive.


Jan. 15th, 2009 10:01 pm (UTC)
Thanks. I hope I post a little more often. What have you been doing?
Jan. 15th, 2009 10:07 pm (UTC)
not a whole lot. it's been a hard 6 months or so in that my older son moved to seattle last summer and my younger son went off to college this fall. i haven't been sure at all of who i am any more or what i'm supposed to do next. not unusual, maybe, but it takes time and work to figure things out!
Jan. 18th, 2009 06:44 pm (UTC)
I think it is very natural that life changes cause re-evaluations. I went through that after Will died. I also am going through that now because of health issues. Confusion and turmoil can result and an inner struggle to redefine one's life and one's energy. You had so much love energy to give the kids, you have to dial it back, so now what do you do with what is left?