August 7th, 2004

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The Wild Ride

I have compared grief to a roller coaster. I have been on the ride today. I have felt happy and horrible so close together it is frightening. I was watching a TV show I really enjoy (Monk) and during the show I was as happy as I am nowadays. On each commercial I felt so depressed. It's very weird.

My therapist is having surgery next week, and I am anxious about not going for two weeks. I feel as though so many people don't want to hear what I am thinking about. They can't take it because it is so raw. B surely can't. Friends change the subject. I am upset and I don't know what to do.