The reason I hadn't been writing in my journal this past year was that I was so exhausted after the crazy time I was spending with 60 kids on my caseload and way too many requirements to meet per kid. Not to mention the fact that I felt horrible about not helping them more. And the fact that my direct supervisor was much less than encouraging or helpful. I have some friends there that are wonderful, so I'll never regret working there. But I am really glad I left.
A lady on the imperfect_heart community pointed me to a website for CHD quilts. You can request a quilt block be made in honor or in memory of your child for free. So I requested one for W.