I know you are feeling a lot of things right now. Probably, you are feeling angry. You might be feeling angry:
At God for letting this happen
At your dad and me for not protecting W
At yourself for something you did when W was alive
At other people for continuing to have fun when you feel bad
At yourself for having fun even though W is dead
At me for forcing you to do things that you don't want to do just because W is dead
At me for asking you how you feel all the time
At your dad and me for not paying attention to you since you are still with us
It's ok to feel mad about all these things and other things, too. I hope you talk to someone so that you can see that these are just feelings and not necessarily the way things have to be.
I love you.