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So it has been eight months now since I saw my dear son alive. I still seem to be riding a roller coaster of numbness and pain. Although it's a gentler coaster now, like one of those rides on the kiddie side of the park. I am so tired of being sad, of talking about being sad, and of having sad stories to tell. Don't know what else to do, though. It won't get any better anytime soon, since B's mom is so very sick. Also, I still miss W so very much, and I don't really want to get over missing him. I want him to be missed forever.

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bkwrrm_tx
Feb. 10th, 2005 03:15 am (UTC)
My mom died 8 years ago next week, and this time of the year is always hard, but with Shay's diagnosis - lets just say that I'm not in a good place, emotionally.

I am so sorry for your loss. I want to say I can't imagine what it must be like, to lose a child, but I can imagine it. That's all I do, anymore. I wish I could say something to make you feel better.

I'm so sorry.
lonestarslp
Feb. 10th, 2005 03:51 am (UTC)
I just hope it doesn't happen to you, that Shay gets a remission.