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Cryin' like a Baby

Everytime I go to a church service in our chapel, I end up crying. Something just seems to reach through the protective covering I have over my vulnerable area. It is cleansing, in a way. I think I need to do it every once in a while or I become hard and bitter.

I had a wonderful lunch with an angel on Earth--the nurse who is working so hard to help the local school district get trained. I hope we spend more time together. She and I discussed several great ideas for Will's Drills. I had had a rough day yesterday, so this was very soothing.

Visited W's grave again today. It has now been 9 months since he died. I think that is why I have been so weepy. 9 months is a gestation period, and I have given birth to a grief that will always be a part of me.


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Mar. 10th, 2005 02:13 am (UTC)
i can imagine that the 9-month mark would be psychologically very significant, and yes, i'm sure that grief would always be there.

it's good that you had lunch with an angel today.
Mar. 10th, 2005 03:41 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry... I wish I had the words, but I don't.
Mar. 10th, 2005 07:06 am (UTC)
It fades a tiny bit - slowly, slowly. But there will always be some righteous anger that a life was cut so short.


You are making a REAL difference. Yes. Amen.
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