Ann (lonestarslp) wrote,

Swinging too fast on the mood trapeze

I had quite a weekend. I was happy and down in wild bursts. Saturday morning, a friend and I did a CPR demo for our church's child safety fair. We enjoyed being together, but afterward I felt down like I always do when I do things that remind me of how Will died. The we got the call about Arnold, and had a really fun Saturday night. The next morning I went to church alone (the boys stayed to babysit Arnold), where they had a service for the graduating seniors. Even though Will would not have graduated this year (he would be finishing his junior year), I could not help but think about how he will never graduate. I cried through the sermon, and I had to go to the bathroom, where I really lost it. A nice lady tried to help, but when she asked what was wrong, that just made it worse. Finally, I got it together enough to go to Sunday School and made it through the hour without crying. I was emotionally exhausted by Sunday evening.

But I slept really well Sunday night, and helped by a higher dose of meds and a morning walk with Arnold, I was in a more cheerful mood today than I had been in a very long time. I hope this keeps up.

I took Arnold on a long walk around the block tonight. I was impressed at his staying power. He practically ran the whole time! But when we got back home, he was exhausted. SO I was able to take this picture of him:


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